The Nerve(s)

Well, I woke up this morning with a stomach full of knots and sweaty palms.

This evening I’m going to do my first audition in … almost 10 years? Wow, I’m not even entirely sure how long it’s been. I know I was in a few plays in the last year of high school, but I can’t remember if I actually auditioned for the parts or not.

Something tells me I may have. So maybe it’s been a little less than 10 years, maybe more like 8. But it’s daunting either way.

Our local community theatre group has auditions for a show that will begin in September or October. It’s a cabaret-style musical at the Black Box Theatre in Kelowna — a tiny, tiny little stage downtown that only has room for about 70 or 80 people. We’re doing a show called The Fabulous Fifties (?). I’ve never heard of it, I think it’s written by someone relatively local and is about royalty coming to Kelowna to open the floating bridge in the 1950s.

So yah, it’s a musical. A cabaret-style musical, and I’ve been sporaticly breaking out into a Jackie-rendition of Fly Me To The Moon every couple of hours for the past four days (since I found out about the auditions). I’m basing my version on Diana Krall’s take. I don’t have the most beautiful upper register singing voice, so at least this one is in my range (though I am changing some of the notes because I’ll only be singing the first 32 bars).

It’s been a lifetime and a half since I’ve done any singing at all. I used to be really into musical theatre, but couldn’t find the time in university and then moved up north shortly after. This is the first chance I’ve really had to try my hand at the game again. And man oh man do I have a case of nerves.

I’m sure I’ll be fine, I’m sure I’ll get through it, but the idea of putting myself out there again is terrifying. Standing up in front of strangers and singing when I KNOW I’m rusty and KNOW I can be pitchy if I’m not careful. But at the same time, I also know that I don’t have an absolutely terrible voice. I know that with practice I could do a good job, and it’s something I have always dreamed of doing again.

So I’m finally getting out there. Finally trying to steer my future and my life in a direction I want it to go, instead of just letting it glide along in whatever direction the road goes.

So if you’re awake at 7:15 PT, send some good vibes my way. I’ll be feeling around for them 🙂


3 Responses to “The Nerve(s)”

  1. Mongoose Says:

    Good luck!

  2. geri Says:

    Hi Jackie…are you nominated for an Oscar after your rendition of Diana Krall’s ‘Fly me to the moon’ ????

  3. Angela Says:

    I hope it went well! I know the feeling well…I auditioned for Godspell a year and a half ago and it was excruciating. However, I got a part and it was the best experience ever. I can’t wait to get settled back on the island and get involved with theatre again. You know what they say…once you get bit with the acting bug… 😉

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